These thoughts are haunting me.. Could they mean what I think they mean?

Honey, the first thing I want to tell you is that it is not your fault if something did happen, never allow yourself to feel that way. I was abused as a child, though I blocked it out for many years it eventually came back to me in my early teens through a series of terrifying dreams and flashbacks similar to what you have described. My heart goes out to you. Though it is still it is still difficult to talk about even now, I have been in counselling for over 10 years and deal with it as well as anyone can. I urge you to talk to someone you feel safe with and close to about what you think happened, even if the memories are hazy and incomplete. It can be extremely hard having to go back and deal with things, especially if they were so traumatic you blocked them out in the first place. This is something that can be dealt with and gotten past, I promise you can have a wonderful life regardless. Counselling can also be very helpful whenever you feel ready to take that step, even if it is not right away. Please remember that you are an innocent victim and that you are not at fault for what happened. I hope that you will seek help and guidance, no one should have to deal with this on their own, and I will keep you in my prayers. Jaqee